Change is good, but it's difficult. We enjoy comfortable spaces, our routines, and our established lifestyles. Without change, we wouldn't grow. We wouldn't find out what we love, what we like, what we dislike. However, change can often lead to more questions and fewer answers. Guess what? That's ok. Not everything will be answered. A childhood nickname of mine was "Wemberly" after the main character in Kevin Henkes' picture book Wemberly Worried. I have always been a worrier.
I've had a lot of worries this past year. This year was supposed to be the year I graduated, started becoming a relatively independent person, started figuring out what my next steps were, and was "supposed to" go to grad school or get my first real job. In the spring, we started thinking about moving to Chicago in February, took the first steps toward getting an apartment in March, and NOTHING seemed to be working out. Either we didn't have the money, there weren't spaces or jobs available for May yet, or something didn't sit right with us and we had to change plans. It was scary. By the summer, we made it to Chicago and by the fall, we made it through the jobs that were just supposed to get us here and help us pay the rent. However, I still found I was worrying about what was next. Over Thanksgiving break, Dylan and I went to go see Frozen II. We were surrounded by families and laughing children (I'm pretty sure I was laughing louder than some of the kids, to be honest), and expected to just see a fun children's movie. However, because of the season we're in, I got a lot out of it. I know that Disney movies have a tendency to be full of fantasy, happily-ever-afters, and unrealistic expectations of love and body image (shoutout to my girl Ariel). HOWEVER there are still little messages and lessons that can hit you in the feels. All that being said, my biggest takeaway from Disney's continued moneymaker that was absolutely necessary for these post-graduate years was this: Do the next right thing. I needed to remind myself that right now is not about about making grand life decisions. I don't need to have everything planned. I don't need to know where I'm going to live when my lease ends in May. I don't need to know if I'm going to have the same job this time next year. I don't need to know what I want to do for grad school or when/where my wedding will be. Planning is good, but not worrying. I need to make small choices today and tomorrow that sit right. For you, this may look like eating the healthier option available, taking a rest day, or taking a class. Your choices will be different because we're all on our own journey, but I hope that we can add a little peace to the changing of our seasons by simply remembering to do the next right thing.
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